Monday, February 14, 2011

my valentine

Kevin,
The day we married I knew that we would have a wonderful life, I knew that the journey would not always be easy but it would be wonderful if I walked that journey with you to hold my hand. I was right, life has been wonderful.
You have patiently allowed me to mature and grow as both wife and mother, you have patiently loved me despite the total hormonal outrageous women I am while pregnant (and since I have been pregnant most of our marriage that is saying a lot)... you held my hand as I labored 18 hours with Averi, scared to death as to what motherhood would be like and wondering if I would be any good at it and you never waivered in your confidance and assurance that I was going to be great...that we would be great... I know now that you too were afraid but your faith in God which I so often envy was what gave you the confidance to comfort me! You pushed me to both my physical and emotional limits while I labored naturally with Sofia, knowing and hating the pain I was in, but also knowing what was best for both her and I and knowing how badly I wanted to deliver without drugs... you pushed me to be my very best, you pushed me to trust that God had given me the strength to deliver her and you pushed me to see that together we could do what so many thought was ridiculous, her birth was incredible, I will never ever forget the gratitude I feel for you for pushing me so hard.
We have struggled with the immense pressure of finances. Financial burdens we could not for see and financial burdens we brought on ourselves. We have paid the price dearly for our mistakes and I watched as you have mourned for those mistakes but also as you have grown into a wiser man and leader because of them. I can not say enough how much I appreciate your work ethic, how much I appreciate you planning financially for our daily needs but also for our future and especially how much I appreciate your desire for me to eventually be able to stay home full time with our precious girls, knowing that that is your desire as well as mine pushes me to work that much harder to get us there!
I often hear people talk of their children as a burden, I love that neither of us see them that way. We both adore them, are we tired?YES. Worn out? Yes. But in reality we love being parents... we love to play with them and spend time with them, I could not ask for a better man to call their faher, really truly I could not. You love your daughters immensly as they do you. You love this baby within me with your whole heart as well, as much as I do, it will be a journey with three under three but we will manage, and if we continue to cling to one another and to God we will come out stronger and more in love.
Kevin you are most assuredly my best friend. You amaze me in a million different ways. You too have grown and matured the last nearly 4 years of marriage and I am honored to call you my valentine.
Love,
Rach

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