weigh in...

I weighed in friday morning before I headed to louisville for a fun filled birthday weekend! I was 197.2... down 1.8 from the week before making my total weigh loss so far, 58.8lbs! I am so close to my goal I can taste it, or maybe that is the weight watchers ice cream I just ate!
Kevin and I have been hitting the gym hard. I love it! I have started weight lifting along with cardio, I have no desire to be a muscle women but man talk about knocking off some inches, and FAST, it is amazing! I also attended my first Zumba class today... wow I really can not dance but man I felt like I could in that class, it was so much fun, I cant wait to try it again!
It is often hard for me to make the time for things like the gym. I struggle with the idea that I should be using that time to do something for the kids, or for Kevin... but in reality making efforts to make myself more healthy is taking care of them. It sets a healthy confidant example for my girls, it helps me to be more confidant in myself which ofcourse Kev loves, and it helps me to be more relaxed and will hopefully help me be around for a long time to watch my sweet girls grow up!

TEN MONTHS!

Miss P... you are ten months this month. I can not believe it! You are growing to fast, I just want to slow you down and cuddle you like a baby a little longer! You are a wild women these days. You have begun to stand a little without holding onto anything but have not quite ventured into stepping. You are a climber, you like to crawl under my end tables and sit on the shelf beneath them and you climb up your sisters toddler chair and follow her onto her bed to play. I think you forget you are just a baby, I always catch you but I have to keep an eye on you always, you are fast and sneaky!
You have been going through a little seperation anxiety and havent liked nursery much as of late. You start getting a death grip on my arm from the time we walk into church until the time I pry you off in order to drop you off, screaming! So far you have seemed to calm down after I leave but the nursery workers have had to hold you the whole time in order to kkeep you calm, thank goodness these women are so patient and kind with you! And thank goodness you are so irresistably cute they cant help but want to hold you, I know I cant!
You and your sister seem to become better friends every month. As you grow she finds you a better play mate. Every where she goes she says "Hey sof Come on" and you are always quick to follow! Tonight in the car she was making you laugh, which in turn would make her laugh, and then she said "Sofie I love you"... talk about melt your mommas heart! My prayer is that the two of you will be best of friends and that you will always have one anothers back! You are so precious Sofia Pearl!

Dance...

Averi is officially enrolled in a ballett/tap class. She starts the 31st of this month! I dont know who is more excited, her or me. I bought her her leotard and she showed us some of her best moves, so sweet! I can not believe my baby girl is old enough to be in dance, wasnt she just learning to walk?

birthday fun...

My sister in laws birthday is the 18th and mine is the 27th so we had a joint birthday party this past saturday with the fam! It was a lot of fun! I am so happy to share a birthday month with my sister in law she means so much to us and is always there with helping hands! We love ya Auntie K!

weigh in...

the weigh ins have begun... Ive decided to weigh in on fridays vs mondays as the weekends are always hard with dieting! This morning I was 199 even...I know to some that sounds huge, but I am five ten... my goal is 175 my wedding day weight). I can not even describe what joy I felt to be under two hundred, may I never see 200 on the scale again!
So this week I was down 2.8lbs
TOTAL 57lbs!
We have joined a gym and I am so excited! It is CHEAP and includes childcare so Ive enjoyed being able to go the last two days and have an hour of me time... hoping it pays off... I would love to hit my goal before Sofie turns one!

salsa

some friends of ours gave us some fresh veggies from their garden so Kev decided to try his hand in salsa making! He really enjoyed the experiment he tried one core recipes with several different add ins... after trying them all we decided to mix them all together and add a little more tomato...YUM! We are already discussing planting our own garden and new ways to enhance Kevs salsa recipe!

tall and lean...

at sofies NINE month check up she was 18.6lbs and 28inches... this is the baby who weighed a whopping SIXTEEN lbs at her four month check up! She still has rolls at the top of her little thighs but other then that she has really thinned out. She eats like a champ, both solids and formula, she is sleeping well (going twlve hours most nights) and the doctor said her development was great, she is so close to walking it's amazing! She is in the 80th for height and 50th for weight. I kindve wish she would chunk up a bit so she could wear Averi's 18 month hand me downs for fall...she is currently in nine month clothes tho so we shall see!

fifty fuve pounds and counting...

Ive been on weight watchers for just over five months. Ive lost just under fifty five pounds. I almost didnt write this post because the fact that I had that much extra weight(plus the last twenty five I am currently working on) is embarressing. The fact that someone who was thin and athletic allowed myself to use pregnancy as an excuse to blow up like a cow is embarressing. I remember after Averi was born the weight started to come off, with little effort. I still needed to drop about fifty pounds though when we discovered we were pregnant with Sofie... luckily I kept my weight gain more feesible with her then with Averi yet after she was born I was sure the weight would be easy to lose! Not so much! I had no motivation to eat less, and no motivation to exercise. I hated getting dressed. Mirrors terrified me. And my self esteem was at rock bottom!
Then weight watchers and my dear friend Ashley cam along. Ashley had less weight to lose then I but she was still my number one motivator! The weeks I wanted to eat everything she kept me focused on my goal. The weeks I wanted to cry because I worked so hard for a measley half pound she reminded me that that was something, and something was better then nothing! She will never ever ever understand the sncourager she was to me. Going to those weight watchers meetings every monday with her was just what I needed!
When july came and I knew we were about to move I looked up weight watchers meetings in Murfreesboro. I was bound and determined to remained focused. I walked into my meeting with my head held high ready to face the scale. Then the very nice lady said "we dont honor your monthly pass in middle TN maam...". What did she mean! I will tell ya what she meant,all the WW in Middle Tn are franchises (this would have been nice to know before I went to a meeting) if I wanted to attend weight watchers in Murfreesboro I will have to pay an extra ten bucks a month and lose all my online access as well as the benefit of "lifetime"...ARE YOU KIDDING ME!

So I am trying to drop this last twenty five without my companion, my accountability, weight watchers... I am following the plan. But it is much harder when you arent heading to a meeting monday night to get on a scale in front of someone to not eat that extra burrito! So my blog is going to have to act as accountability from here on out! Starting a week from today I will honestly post my weight here... I know most people arent interested but I need the motivator!

I looked at this pic today as motivation...

Me fifty four pounds ago...


me today...

I guess...

I guess Sofie didnt want her picture taken...

I love you forever...



I like you for always...



As long as Im living my babies you will be...

picture over load...

I Have far too many pictures to upload...my camera and computer haven't been getting along this month so I am way behind! Kev has it working again tho so I am going to do some highlights of the last month!

We spent the fourth in Dickson with Kevs family... always a good time!







Sofie and I went to florida...
I got to see my sister brother in law and stud of a nephew Corbin!





We said goodbye to friends and headed off to TN!




Where new friends and family were wating for us...

"mommy I want Emma Jane..."

Averi and Jane just before we moved...

We were so blessed to live the last six months in louisville right next to one of my dearest friends...she too stays home with her kids and her kids are right around the ages of mine. Her second little girl is just a month older then Averi! Needless to say Averi and Jane quickly became best buds, as well as Ashleys older little girl Emma!
They saw each other almost on a daily basis and the days that they didnt see one another were filled with "mommy I want Emma Jane" to which I could always respond... "tomorrow baby we will see them tomorrow". I cant respond that any more despite that the question is still there! I keep explaining that we live in TN now and that even though we can't see Emma and Jane everyday we can know that they miss Averi as much as she misses them and that we can pray and ask God to give us new friends and look forward to visiting Emma and Jane soon. I think all Averi hears is that we aren't seeing her best friends today tho, and that makes us both sad!
We really are enjoying getting to know new friends in TN and look forward to really plugging into a church!We are loving seeing family more and spending more time as a family! God has reassured us over and over that this is where we are supposed to be and with that reassurance comes excitement as we watch his hand unfold our future!

New room...

It is funny how much stuff you feel like you have when you live in an apartment... then you move into a house and realize you have several bare walls and windows... oh well with time they will be filled!I will gladly have bare walls and windows for more room and a YARD!!!! Since we are only renting we arent planning on painting, atleast as of right now... but since we have a two year lease I still want this new house to feel like home! The first room competed... our bedroom!